This is probably just a personal rant and rave but I shall share my feelings anyways.
This lack of a gf is really getting to me. I go through a vicious cycle, where for a period of time, I'll actually try to test the waters and get shot down. Repeatedly. (I've heard every lame excuse in the book) Then, I'll say the hell with trying and get the INSANE impression that that special someone would present herself to me, and play it cool. No luck there, either.
Don't know what else to do. I'm a lonely f~cker, and I hate being lonely. I mean before I know it, I'll be ass-up in my grave before I get a girlfriend. People say my negative attitude sucks, but yours would too if you knew how many times I've been rejected.
I'm 24 now and I've never had a girlfriend.
I'm not asking for sympathy or anything, just sharing how I feel. I've always believed that honesty and openness are good morals, and even now I haven't shyed away from that, even after all I been through. I mean straight up, if I like someone, I'mma say so.
I don't know, sometimes I may go about that the wrong way, cuz I'm actually pretty shy and sometimes the words are hard to come by. Hell, most of the time I don't even ask people out straight up, it's "Hey, would you wanna hang out some time," or something. And then sometimes, I don't even have the guts to say anything. I'll write what I feel down and then compile a short note out of those feelings to that person I like.
I mean, I don't think I'm boring by any means. I try to be humorous. Basically, I'm myself, and I ain't gonna change that.
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"Too bad we'll never know.....if this is a face you could learn to love....."
-Doyle (R.I.P.)
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